Humility

Proverbs 18:12
Before his downfall a man's heart is proud,
but humility comes before honor

"Trying to be Paul, without first being Saul"
- A Disciple

Throughout the past couple of weeks I have been going through a trial of humility. I have continually found my self in situations that everything I'm trying to do is failing or being frustrated so I just need to stop, sit, listen, and wait for God's timing in my life. Even something as random as stubbing my toe seems to have occurred in order to allow me to just stop and wait on God. Through this time I have realized that I am trying very hard to serve God in every possible way that I can but in doing this I have very much ignored what he has already done in my life and placed in front of me to do through Christian service that is more about waiting than action. I am trying to be Paul, without first being Saul. Being thrown from a horse and blinded by Jesus, so I may stop relying on what is unseen but rather what is eternal.

2 Corinthians 4:18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

(Journal entry 2/3/11 - 10:10am)

Lord I thank you for rest. Lord I thank you for dreams. Hope. Peace. Warmth. Goals. Ideas. Passion to do great things for your name. Father I have been going through this changing experience and I'm not sure where you are leading me. But its not easy its a little painful. Lord I feel I am here for a different purpose than I originally thought. Yet don't let me harbor spiritual pride. I often think the walk with Christ is like a ladder you climb with different people all over the place, and I think I'm farther than others based on my experiences and choices.

God how can I think that!

You are the one who knows us and where you want us. Lord may I be so oblivious to my own path that I'm constantly relying on you to guide me. May I constantly see others and ask them to get back on the path with you Lord.


Exert from Streams in the Desert

But do not suppose that He has cast thee aside. Thou art still in His quiver; He has not flung thee away as a worthless thing.

He is only keeping thee close till the moment comes when He can send thee most swiftly and surely on some errand in which He will be glorified.
- Streams in the Desert